Jesus loves us. He wants us to be close to Him, to unite with Him. That is the simple truth and basic instruction and goal. To do this, we must love Jesus more than anything else, especially our own selves.
But I hope any readers of these recent posts understand that mystical phenomenon carry with them many crosses not just brought on by others but also within the recipient, for there are many doubts and senses of unworthiness, plus questions and wondering if one is not getting the message, or is not doing something more or other that the Lord desires.
It estranges some people for various reasons, and in others it makes no difference as to helping inspire, and that is painful.
So it is best to remain focused on loving Christ and on remaining in His love, and in enduring whatever numinous events or none, with equanimity of spirit and praying for humility which comes along with mystical phenomenon. It is all quite humbling--those crosses.
I don't feel as if there is anything more that can be written about such matters at this point. Just know that they are not "fun" and carry with them (if they happen in public) lots of trials and upsets. Think of Jesus, how it really was for Him, dragging that cross through the crowds jeering and cheering and a very few weeping. He was marked, and nothing was going to change people's views other than his death and resurrection.
For us imperfect humans, nothing will change people's views other than our deaths and any ways in which the Holy Spirit might change their hearts to Him, never to the person who is simply a temporal medium of whatever spiritual message.
Just know that there is a painful reality to such things.